So I am sitting in my bathroom smoking.  Thinking.  Thinking that I am tired of just being.  There are so many things going through my head that I have to get it out.  I want to talk but don't know who to call.  I don't know if anyone would even care to listen to my ramblings.  i'm laughing at the thought that I should just pay a therapist.  Not ( Read more... )

Today was a rollercoaster day.  School was eh.  Gavin's md appt. went well.  They upped his meds a little which we expected and we said a sad goodbye to Dr. Cox.  We made our next appointment with the doctor she reccomended for next month so well see how that goes ( Read more... )

I have been a very busy girl.  My new phones come in tommorow, one for me and one for Alex.  Everything is ready to go with the new place.  Alex packed up some of her and Gavin's stuff today which was a big help.  I think I am actually going ot start moving things on saturday.  I have even considered spending the night at the new place saturday ( Read more... )

It's official.  As of August 1 I will no longer be living with Mark.  We feel like this is the best thing we can do for everyone.  I don't know if we are going to stay together, we are both in a really weird space right now.  We have pulled away from each other for the time being and I am taking over some bills.  As soon as the weather starts to ( Read more... )

I am starting my elimination diet on tuesday.  This is the only real way to see if I have any sort of food allergy and I have always suspected that I do.  Scratch test are usually inconclusive and only test for a limited amount of allergies.  So an elimination diet is good but I know it's going to be a little hellish.  I would know because I have ( Read more... )

So Merry Christmas to everyone ( Read more... )

So the past week has been one of those weird sort of blah type weeks.  It is not even feeling Christmas.  Most of the days have followed a similar pattern.  Like today for example ( Read more... )

It felt weird not posting today so I gave in and decided to do a "Thanks list ( Read more... )

I really need some stability in my life.  At this point I am wondering if that is even possible ( Read more... )

Tommorow is Gavin's birthday.  He's going to be 6.  I have to give the little guy props for maintaining his "kid" through all that he has been through ( Read more... )