Recently I reconnected with a very old friend on Facebook. This is someone I have known since I was three years old roughly and just had lost touch with when I quit attending the same church and he had gone off to college. We used to flirt and there has always been an attraction between the two of us. It was innocent kisses when we were younger ( Read more... )

from my past. Years ago I attended Calvery Temple with my grandmother. For YEARS I went to church faithfully every Sunday. When I was about 12 I worked in one of the younger kids classes assisting with the kids. I met some of the older kids and became friends with them. One of them was the man who would be my first true love. We stayed in ( Read more... )

Lately I feel like I'm grasping at straws. It's there but it's not. I watch those around me fall in love, finding their bit of happiness and its not there for me. I've only honestly been in fully love once in my life, and it wasn't the man I married. I was too young to know what I had in my hands, and I let it go ( Read more... )

where you wonder how your life would have turned out differently if you had made different decisions ( Read more... )

1. what did you do in 2009 that you'd never done before ( Read more... )

Real I am, I promise.  Just really haven't had much to update lately.  Working and working LOTS.  Feeling beat down and exhusted and can't wait for April.  Going there for two weeks and I'm expected to rest, relax and have fun... So looking forward to that one!

More when I'm actually awake enough to think

going great. I have met someone, online, again. But this one has a job, and is ready to be an adult. However lives even further away, but is willing to COME SEE ME. Yes that's right no long ass car trips that result in me being frustrated sexually cause the man er, boy isn't mature enough.


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OK really tired of feeling completely broke. This sucks I owe mom close to $400... Am I going to be able to pay most of that back this week... NO... Cause work screwed my schedule, and they have been cutting hours, I'm fucked. My check once I pay insurance and get my smokes will let me hand my mother a little and I do mean LITTLE over $200... ( Read more... )

Ok, I'm in a funk over these sleeves... I'm tempted to just remove them and make different one's that can be attached... Which I've seen evidence of, or cut them shorter (and still add panels to widen them slightly)...

Ideas, tips, hints, anybody???

I'm seeing alot of Cote's online with shorter sleeves and a long sleeve shift under it. If shorten the sleeves I would DEFINATLY be able to add to the sleeves to make them fit better. and a long sleeve shift... Well that ain't no thing... so it's to detach the sleeves and cut them down and FINISH this dress so I can wear it... (still need to ( Read more... )