I don't have a crush anymore. How wonderful is that? I finally got rid of him. Or thinking about him to be exact ( Read more... )

The bar thing on Sat was a huge mistake. I should've known it as I didn't feel at all like partying. I regret the loss of about 5 Euros. It was all in vain. We sat at the most popular bar of this fucking village, it was cold, I was tired and bored to death. I didn't really want to discuss the things we were talking about and I couldn't have cared ( Read more... )

Hilla really knows how to piss me off. She doesn't do it intentionally, though. Imagine you've just learned you get to meet your demi-gods and your friend, who was at the concert as well, calls you to ask where you are and whether you're going home together with them. You say "Umm... we're going backstage... So we're not coming." She says "OK, bye ( Read more... )

Yesterday my mind was trying to make up stuff to make me less happy, which is unfortunately typical of me. Today I finally understand how fucking lucky I am and I'm just too happy to realize just how great I'm doing. Something I've been dying to get for the past 3 years has been given to me. This time I can honestly say there has been Justice. I ( Read more... )

So we came to this pretty small room with black curtains covering the walls. There were free cans of Coke and beer and some music (at first RHCP, then Depeche Mode and Marilyn Manson). The guy who told us where to go had said "a band member might come to say hello" which I interpreted as "probably none of them will come and if that should happen, ( Read more... )

Now I could make a more detailed entry about the whole day. So, me and Onerva got on the train at 1.30 pm and were in Pasila at about 2 pm. We went to Hartwall Areena straight away, after I tried to use a public toilet, for which I paid 1 Euro and which refused to open its door for me. So I might as well have thrown the coins on the railway or ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the best fucking day of my life ( Read more... )

I don't know if it's the chocolate I just ate or what but I'm feeling energetic and pretty nice. Optimistic which is dangerous.
I feel optimistic about K. I'm dumb, I think now's the time it can finally be said. But I can't help it. I don't have anyone else to develop a crush on, so...
I feel like it's only a matter of time until something happens ( Read more... )

It's been 5 weeks since my last entry. That's life. I've had other things to think about. Can't name one but anyway ( Read more... )

So at the moment my future looks bright and not blur as hell as usually. I'm very serious about applying to Poliisikoulu after all. I've felt great ever since I made up my mind about that on Monday. And now it's Thursday. I can't remember when was the last time I've felt this good for this long. It all has made me forget whatever obsession I had ( Read more... )