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a dark trace
Just gone 3am ( Read more... ) -
to be learned ...
So, I'm about to head to Mongolia - with mixed feelings. It's hard to go from total excitement and anxiety to anything else but emptiness and a quiet form of apathy when what you were looking forward to slowly disintegrates in front of you ( Read more... ) -
A failure?
They say it is better to have tried and failed, than to have failed to try. But at which point do you know you have tried enough and have failed? And how do you know you have tried hard enough? Or is that even a parameter to consider ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
I realised that the internal misery that seems to inhabit me these days is due to a simple internal processing error ( Read more... ) -
If I could ...
If I could travel back in time, I would visit my 16 year old self and tell her not to try so hard. Don't try to please other people so much, that is not why you are here, rather spend all that energy on yourself ( Read more... ) -
21.6.12 - our vows
"Dear friends and family, it is a pleasure and privilege to welcome you all on this beautiful summer’s day to celebrate the coming together of two hearts, to celebrate commitment, devotion and love. Julia and Paul are two independent people. However, they feel that with each other they become something more. They challenge each other and support ( Read more... ) -
Dearest Humanity
It feels like I've finally woken up from a very long sleep. A self-imposed nightmare I should have woken up from ages ago ( Read more... ) -
cautious wisdom
It's been so long since I took time to write ( Read more... ) -
life and all that changes
We've moved to a shared flat in Zurich, I've started the project of a lifetime and the wedding plans are going smoothly. There's a lot going on and I can feel it not only weighing on my mind but also affecting my body ( Read more... ) -
murderous dreams
How I had been lured into the elevator, I'm not quite sure, but as soon as I stepped onto it, and pressed the button for the 38th floor, I knew I was in trouble. The doors closed before I could rush out of the cabin. It ascended slowly to start off with, seeming almost maliciously slow, and then it stopped ( Read more... )