The Everthere

[leiju]

I'm not allowing myself to experience the compliments or attention I'm extended because I seem to believe, somewhere deep down below, that if I accept any of it I won't know how to be open to criticism anymore, that I'll get a big head and that I will come across as self-centred and righteous

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[evilbobrex]

you know how I feel towards and about you.
you know how I love your introspection.
however, if I can give one piece of advice from my more brief and less worthwhile educational experience, it's this, stop it.
I do want you to know answers to those questions, as much as you do.
but you need to focus on the educational goals you have right now.
there will be time. this is not it.
and no, I don't expect you to listen. but I know from experience, it would be helpful.

[leiju]

Dearest You, I think You fail to see me on this point...
It's not about answering these questions as much as simply voicing them out. I can't stop being me, I can't simply switch off the valve and stop my mind from acting as it does, that would make me a computer, strip me of my human self.
By voicing these questions, by finally opening the gates again I can concentrate better on what's at hand. This is like my security valve, you know, the kind they have on pressure cookers. I've kept the lid shut because I thought I could manage otherwise yet I notice that I was only fooling myself. You have no idea how much more I get done by finally letting it go and giving myself the space to breathe again.
Educational purposes don't go far if it's a desperate mess in my head. You think I have space to cram it with senseless info if all that hovers around are questions of worth? :)

Thank You for your concern, but I dare to believe, this time, You're a bit off-mark :)

Hugs and Love *mmwah*

[siveys]

you silly little girl :D

you define you to be only a part of you because this is what part of you does!

what a great excuse you have found for you to stop finding new ways for you to be a different kind of you!

you are being so you that i find it absolutely impossible for me not to love you <3

but do you really think that you could lose what you have learned about love in such a way that you could not find it again when you really need to? i can assure you there is nothing for you to fear.

you just got to stop being so damn you and slowly craft a new you to take you humbly towards the path you know feels the right for you!

[leiju]

Dear Love,

Thank You ;) You know how much it means to me to see You here ;)
I'm happy to find a trace of your impossibility to not love me here ;)

Love Ya!