hope
dangles on a string
like slow spinning redemption
winding in and winding out
the shine of it has caught my eye
and roped me in so
mesmerizing so
hypnotizing
i am captivated
i am

VINDICATED, I AM SELFISH! I AM WRONG!
I AM RIGHT, I SWEAR I'M RIGHT, SWEAR I KNEW IT ALL ALONG
AND I AM FLAWED!BUT I AM CLEANING UP SO WELL, I AM SEEING IN ME NOW ( Read more... )

this is the first entry on my new laptop. it's very exciting because i intend to write every night. should be cool.

my letters to aaron begin today as well.

April 13, 2007
Dear Aaron,

All I can really say is I'm sorry. I'm sorry for my mixed messages; they're mixed because I myself was not certain how I wanted to approach our relationship ( Read more... )

Right now, I feel so sick ( Read more... )

The words have been drained from this pencil
Sweet words that I want to give you
And I can't sleep... I need to tell you goodnight

When we're together I feel perfect
When I'm pulled away from you I fall apart
All that you say is sacred to me
You're eyes are so blue, I can't look away as we lay in the stillness you whisper to me ( Read more... )

Stress. It's back again in all its full blown nastiness. This past week flew by, but I barely had time to get anything done but the essentials ( Read more... )

"Cairo, Egypt 01/25/07: Cairo, Egypt. Giza. Tummy full of butterflies. I had to pinch myself. Damn, I love my job. All the years of stinky butt feet van tours, all the inedible food, all the sweaty gropers, the liars, lawyers, vampires, barnacles, and mocking birds, the instability... all the bad weather, the delusional stalkers and their legions ( Read more... )

so, yesterday turned out very good and very bad in the end. Never had a bday quite like it, that's for sure ( Read more... )

Today, as of 7:16 am (I think) I turned twenty years old. It's nice. I think twenty is a much more reasonable age to be considered a legal adult and should also be the legal drinking age. Because you're no longer a teenager and have (hopefully) had at least a taste of the weighty responsiblities full fledged adults bare on a perpetual basis ( Read more... )

So today was pie making days. Did I say in some previous entry that my Pappy is going for the all time record? Well it's been said now and he is: fourteen pies. Maybe even sixteen. I think everybody, except perhaps Big Bro, is underestimating the size of this Thanksgiving. The list is posted on my most recent Myspace blog and you have to ( Read more... )

...and it's only eight thirtiesh ( Read more... )