well, as vigilance has paid off i can now go to sleep at 10:30 and wake up at 7:30 naturally. this is good because i now know for certain based on moving around my bedtime that i should sleep about 8 1/2-9 hours for best results. this is good info, because then i can wake up refreshed instead of tired. if only i could be more responsible at school ( Read more... )

here is more of a retreat for me than anything else, we only go out into town or maybe to the mall or to out to eat a little bit of the time, the rest of the time i get to relax and think and read and dream. i feel like i dont have anything hanging over my head eventhough i have a paper due in 5 weeks thats the "Big One." so i just piddle around ( Read more... )

myyy hiii hiii beloved one... myyy hiii hiii hiii beloved one...

ah, like salve to the soul that ben harper.

i should be doing lab, but i feel like i should talk about my trip home in the car with my dad. wow. all i can say is wow. we really talked. he really listened. it wasnt just small talk, there was more to it. and he was pretty calm. didnt really yell at cars too much. i think it had something to do with the fact that the baby fell asleep in his ( Read more... )

so, i forgot how much i liked working out. granted, i did get a headache, but managed to ignore it pretty well. luckily i didnt start out with one. :\

anyway, it was great. and for the first time in awhile i am going to collapse and fall asleep. ahhhhhhhh..

UGH. im so disgusted. and ashamed. somethings gotta change. and now. right now. i wish i knew what it was....

damn old helplessness and aloneness came to call today, and i didnt have the heart to scare them away. it must have been quite a sight to see my face fall so drastically, "wobegon" someone said, oh but they are right ( Read more... )

snow, again, today ( Read more... )

ok so this ex of mine is driving me crazy. says hes ok with the fact i want to marry the current guy but obviously isnt. so i try to get along with him cause i like him and he is a good friend and i like goofing with him ( Read more... )

today i had my first pottery class. it felt so good to sink my hands into the clay. the wieght and feel of clay is indescribable in its comfort.. the best i can compare it to is sinking ones toes into the mud and squishing them around after a spring or summer rain. ahh.. that wonderful squishing feeling... mmmmm.. to be back home in summer bare ( Read more... )