Hello! It's been four years since I have done anything livejournal related and when it popped in to my head today I wasn't even sure it still existed! I'm not sure who the vast majority of people on my friends list are so I'm just throwing this out there out of pure curiosity to see if anyone is still on livejournal. If you are, comment! And ( Read more... )

Ok that's it I'm done with livejournal and all it's drama or perceived drama. It's time to grow up.

I don't think I've fully comprehended yet that there will be no camp of any kind for me this summer. None. I spent 2004 away from camp and was miserable and I am not looking forward to it. It's hard for lonely little me to not think about it and simply let it pass in to the past. Would I ever have chose to give up SCATS and VAMPY on my own? It ( Read more... )

I have decided to use this as a sort of day planner with feelings like I did in high school ( Read more... )

Several moments keep sticking out of my memory so here they are for... the sake of it.
My mother, when I was 10, putting a baby bird back in its nest; raising the garage door to find my grandparents playing ping pong together; and the other day, driving past the cemetery to see an elderly lady in a tartan skirt and red jacket staring at the grave

Some things about me ( Read more... )

I don't understand why on the verge of what is supposed to be a major life joy, I have to have a relapse into the depression side of the little monster. I think I would be much farther gone if I didn't know all these people are expecting me to go do my thing in days now. At least there are sleeping pills. And at least they seem to make me want ( Read more... )

I think I am going to visit people in the Athens/Atlanta area on my winding way down to the Gulf Coast. I may be there as early as the 31st of this month and stay as late as the 4th of September. Let me know if you will be there and want to get togeather.

today at camp, three drops of blood rained on me from the sky.

I visited VAMPY today and instead of coming home sad and missing it, I came away feeling closure. It's okay now. I can belong to VAMPYs past. I hardly knew any of the counselors and lots of kids didn't even recognize me and most of those who did had moved on (as they should). And it was okay. I hesitate to say that I will always feel this ( Read more... )