will i regret never taking a chance?
or will i regret giving up a sure thing to take a chance?

i guess i won't know until i try...

i need to stop seeing the "good" in everyone & accept that sometimes people are just dicks.

i feel like i'm having a six-month-long mental breakdown.

in other news, i got drunk last night. and i had fun.

i feel like i'm in a bad mood all the time. i don't know why.

i just need something i'm happy about. something i'm passionate about.

and a trip wouldn't hurt, either.

I want...
- to be Max from Where The Wild Things Are for Halloween.
- to see Chicago in November at the Auditorium Theater.
- a job...
- a job tomorrow so I can buy the amazing Michael Kors boots I want before they sell out in my size.

i am freakingggg out about my interview tomorrow. like, so much so that i feel like i'm going to puke.

i have a job interview next week, for cornell university, working in their extension office in rochester, doing web editing/writing/editing other people's writing/blah blah blah. so, i guess that's exciting....

Everybody hates me.

Cool.

No matter how big of a game I talk, no matter what I say, no matter how many times I say fuck it, it's time to do what makes me happy and put my feelings first... the fact of the matter is, I can't do this if it's going to hurt him. Aside from my family and my best friends, he's the most important person in the world to me and I would rather be ( Read more... )

My heart could not possibly ache any more than it does right now.

And so it goes...