" It was embarrassing how my world suddenly seemed to be empty of everything but her- my whole existence centered around the girl, rather than around myself anymore."

had 2nd interview yesterday, didnt go as well as first.

and i found out another person who applied was, and she really is competition. jason thinks im gonna get it, but im really thinking she will.

if we're gonna make it, we still have some work to do.

i am a fucking martyr.
or however that is spelt.

oh this is just fucking pathetic.
pitiful.
bah humbug!

and i neeeeeed something more, to keep on breathing for.

u dont care about anything.
and all i care about is u.

i see a problem with that. many actually haha.
flaws on both our parts.

la de da dadididei

im learning tho! right!
its a growing experience!!!

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interview went well ( Read more... )

reading my posts from a couple months ago i sound just as confused. fuck. haha ( Read more... )

and i want someone to love me as much as i love them.

i hoped it was gonna be u.

but if not, im very much willing to wait for that right person.
im not settling for any less.

So this is getting annoying ( Read more... )

and im over thinking.
over worrying.

just live ya kno.

His little whispers.
Love Me. Love Me.
That's all I ask for.
Love Me. Love Me.
He battered his tiny fists to feel something.
Wondered what it's like to touch and feel something.
Monster.
How should I f.e.e.l.?

 alright.
i miss u.