ya know, i like helping people. i really do.

i just wish someone would do the same for me.

this was a mistake i know.
it was all a big mistake.

but even knowing that, i dont feel as if i have the power to change it.

my life is hard.
i know that, cuz i made it that way.

well as far as birthdays go, this was the crappiest.

eh, day isnt over, but still.

blah.

oh well, as long as this isnt a foreshadow of the rest of this year
it doesnt really matter to me

ugh the more i find out the less i wanna know.
not sure why i do that to myself.

on other news.

I have no life.
But I'm also content.

Im not sure if that is bad or good.

Im not sure if i even care.

I miss early highschool years.

now im just rather lost, and drifting.

im a drifter yo. 

Carpe Diem.

Really fun at the time.

Screws you for the future though.

...what future?

i wanna  wish u a merry christmas ( Read more... )

blah I hate christmas.

i miss life.

 all these mixed emotions are driving me insane.

So i'm undeleating my lj (well ok, I already did)

i was going to make a new one

but the task of readding a bunch of people seemed to be such a waste.

so here i am again

to post posts about nothing in particular in attempt to figure out this crazy adventure called life.

or just to read all your guys posts.
cuz i find you all to be much more interesting.

and then i shall be happy ( Read more... )

ya know  what, i am thankful.
for a lot of things.

and your right.
maybe i do pity myself too much.

maybe its time to stop regretting and stop worrying.
and start having fun again.