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I cant stand anyone any more no one care I want to commit suicide so fucking bad that I cant stand it I hate everything about myself and my life why????? WHY THE FUCK ME i cant stand it anymore i feel like that I am going to blow the fuck up WHY THE FUCK ME WHY???? Why do things have to be so hard I feel like my friedns dont give a fuck and that ( Read more... ) -
So Sad...
... Chris moved out today I know that it is not like me and Robin wont see him everyday... but you know it is still sad I miss him I thought that I was getting over this but it is clear that over the last couple of days that me and him have been spending more alone time together that I have actually fallen more in love with him and now I am sad no ( Read more... ) -
Wow
Well hello I guess it seems that I only right in you when something is wrong but I guess that is okay so today I went to the SSA office and then they pissed me off. Then I went over to Subway and I realy think that I am not going to get that job and yeah I place most of the blam for that on Robin I told that bitch that I had to be there last week ( Read more... ) -
Ahhh....
I dont know what I am feeling and well yeah I do but it is hard I am so sad and I want to talk about it to people because it makes me feel better... I tried to wright in you eariler but the website was not working. I am so sad because I am thinking about Chris in fact he is the only one in the room with me now. I cant take it.. I realy want to and ( Read more... ) -
So...
... I had an interesting time since I last wrote to you. First of all I strated off cool and everything everyone was haveing a good time and then the evening progressed then I drank a little and was buzzin and I had a serious conversation with Robin about why I was mad at her and stuff and about Chris. I let Robin know and it mad me feel better at ( Read more... ) -
Ahhh.....
Although it seems as thought I dont have this crush I realy know that I do. The sad part of it is that I think that he knows that I do, for some reason at times when he looks at me in my eyes I think that he may have a crush on me as well...uh... but I know that when it comes to Chris my judgement is impaired for Chris he might just be being ( Read more... ) -
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Going thru my day i dont understand alot of things that are going on but I think that I am comming to accept that I dont know... I went for a walk and did not tell any onw that I left I was gone for a while and I dont know if any one noticed or even cared to notice you know... it dosnt really matter... so I told Robin that I was thinking of going ( Read more... ) -
Emotions
I am so mad and sad and everything still wrighting to you last night helped me only then this morning I woke up still angry and very sad the sadness that I am feeling is unclear to me I dont know how to make it subside. I looked arround the room this morning at my friends and they are going about everything like it is normal Robin is wanting to go ( Read more... ) -
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I am so mad and so hurt and so confused and everything I can not believe the overwhelming emotion that I am feeling right now my head is raceing adn I just dont know. It all started when I first moved to Colorado Springs and my bff?? Robins brother Chris and I started to become closer in our friendship then we were before and now I have this huge ( Read more... ) -
Hay it has been a while I am not even sure that any of you are still here...
i am assuming that you all have myspacce i do to so i will try to find you and stuff any way email me @ smrussell101@yahoo.com so that we can catch up any way good bye