Sometimes I drive so fast just to feel the danger

[leslie_carter]

I think life, or maybe it’s God but I don’t want to get into some religious debate… has this way of throwing something in our paths just when we are starting to get comfortable. Like we’re supposed to stay on our toes, and not take a second of life for granted

Comments

[brianlittrell]

I think you have a lot of time a head of you to do so much. 17 is still young. Waiting till your 18 if you choose to do so isn't that long of a wait. Even though at times it may seem to be. But then again, I think your very mature and could handle anything you put your mind to.

I don't think your a failure at all, your worked hard and it maybe not have been the best timing for you. But I see that talent in you, with music but for life in general too. I think you can be and do anything you want.

Maybe this time you need to go with a gut feeling? Try talking to Matt, he seems like a good guy and wouldn't steer you wrong. If you both come to a decision to wait or go ahead with it. It'll be together and that's important.

[leslie_carter]

Thank you Brian. Matt and I are talking it out and trying to come to a decison that will be good for both of us.

I appreciate your support.

[matt_carroll]

I'm not sure what to say. I'd like to help you, but I understand that this is one of those times in a persons life where only that person can help themself. I don't know if you've ever thought about this, but what if you got a regular, every day type of job? I'm sure you could work at a pet store or something, you know? I think some times you get bored and all you're left alone with are your thoughts. You think a little too much and then dwell on the "What if's"

[leslie_carter]

I do think too much, that's just the way I am. My mind is always working.

I can't get a normal job, as "normal" as I want to be there are still security issues and all that. You've seen what a pain it can be to get clearance to just go to the mall. I can't imagine having to do that every day to go to work.

I really need to take some more correspondence courses I think working on more college stuff, would make me feel better. Writing songs, working on the clothes line... all of those things kind of got dropped.

Self worth.

[kelztrack]

I don't really know what to tell you right now, but you shouldn't be listening to anyone but yourself for this matter. It's your own decision on what you should do with your life. Listen to others if you want to but if you don't do what you want to do in the end you'll live to regret it later. I'm regretting right now over going to college because it was what everybody else wanted me to do so I did it. I'm not happy and even though I'm not really the ecstatic type of person I've never felt more depressed and down. My point is to do what you want with your own life. I didn't and now I'm paying for it and who knows if I'll ever get the opportunity to do what I really wanted to do again. You only get one life so do what you want and if others think opposite of that don't mind them. If they really care about you they will just want whatever you want for yourself. I hope all goes well.