so this weekend was ruined bc melissa didn't hang out with me = / it's ok she can make up for it next weekend. but Ian....wow. I fell in love with him again when he was away and I never really stopped to think how grateful I am for him. I adore him. but it doesn't feel like he's completely mine, his pleasure not completely mine (but beautiful all ( Read more... )

there's something about they way that he says he loves me that makes me want to run away with him and marry him. I told him that and he said something along the lines of that used to sound like a good plan...some things never change. it was way more romantic than that tho. the way he uses his words makes me hold my breath and i don't even realize ( Read more... )

I'm thinking about starting to take diet pills so I narrow done to a size 0 and am nothing but bone, I want to be so thin I can fly when the wind blows, so thin I fit inbetween the cracks in the sidewalk, so thin that you'll have to touch me soft so you don't break me ( Read more... )

I ♥ the boy

he is so amazing I am toesoverfingers, kissing in public, hot hot hot, no one makes me Oh like he does

oh.my.fucking.god.i.am.so.in.♥

I dreamt I was your tinkerbell, and I gratned you every wish you dare not speak . I kiss away all your bruises and sooth away your scars. I told you to think happy thoughts, then taught you how to fly. I stopped eating so I could be pure for you , and i feel beautiful locked inside your stare. I cry because you can't and hide myself inside my ( Read more... )

we seem to spend too much of our time replaying the past wondering what could have been, what should have been. we think about the possibilities and fall in love with the nostalgia. we spend hours upon hours living in the future-wondering how it's going to be, how beautiful it would be.sighing over tomorrow, crying over yesterday-we spend too much ( Read more... )

theres nothing left but all our hullucinations... and you can be my pretty painkiller... but I'd rather you be a knife and I'm blowing myself away... only I need you to be my gun.. even though I'd prefer kisses on the neck and whispers whispers whispers about nothing particularly important... and i wish you were here... because I can't feel my ( Read more... )

dude I saw joey today!freakin joey man...I haven't seen that kid in like...I don't know...joe, how long has it been? I actually saw alot of people I knew at the beach today...but none as exciting as joe.I think I am bad luck for him tho...he always loses something when he is around me..hm..well anyway he always finds it so it doesn't matter. but ( Read more... )

I am bored... and reminiscing about the most enigmatic, but intelligently so, girl I have ever met. she was breath taking and mysterious and so was that night and just...everything about it..I don't have such high expectations of everyone understanding it...you had to be there ( Read more... )