that I have been completely mindfucked...yes, I said it...my mind has been fucked with...and at the same time, I don't know if it was even done in a bad way - it could be an alright way...but still...NOT COOL!

Also, it's like 10:00 and tomorrow's school...I don't really think I'm even gonna get my full 5 hours...meh...haha

Blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah...man I'm soo damn bored haha

Dude...I feel so fucking withdrawn from everything. Like not depressed, or upset or anything...just empty. It's almost a confused feeling. I feel like I've lost life and energy...like at least the so called spontaneity I sort of had. Throughout the day, I happen to actually go to all my classes, but worst of all, I just sit there, quiety and ( Read more... )

Wow...so it's been quite a while since I've been on this thing, and yeah. I guess I was really bored and I mean I know why I'm bored...plus there's no one in my house for the whole day...haven't really spoken to anyone so I just really need to vent...really I don't have an complaints to/for anyone...what I mean is that I need to actually say ( Read more... )

Isn't it weird when you don't realize something until the most unreasonable time? I mean, take anything, something that you subconciously know about...that you see daily, but then one day really look at it to the point where you're like "dude, why haven't I seen this...like REALLY seen this for what it is?" It's just so weird and then it being a ( Read more... )

So, the name of this subject came to my head...you know, insatiable ambition...cause well, I'm doing that for this lame Macbeth paper. Although, I recently realized, aren't we all like that? I mean really, it's just a completely natural thing...not to the extent of killing people and whatnot...you know what I mean. Anyway, if you think about it, ( Read more... )

Haha, this pretty much has nothing to do with my subject. Yeah so anyway, something cool happened yesterday. Nothing out of the ordinary that would just make me reflect on it over and over or anything...it was just pretty awesome. Yeah, so, I was thinking, are there any good jazz clubs around, cause it sounds pretty cool. I'd go, I'm sure I can ( Read more... )

So yeah, I definitely screwed up...everything...meh.

Ok, so today was pretty kick ass, I must say. Elliott woke me up around 10ish to go to the jazz/guitar/percussion auditions. So, I got there around 11:15 and what not. The only other people there were Mike, Elliott, and Victor, who left like a half an hour later. Anyway, I helped out a little, spoke to some people, and met this really really cool ( Read more... )

Ok, so pretty much the end of what I thought would've been awesome, came. I mean, it didn't really happen the way I wanted to, but judging by the type of luck I've been having, nothing's REALLY been working for me. That's really the best way I could put it. It sucks so much to actually lose something that you thought was so amazing and perfect, and ( Read more... )