i want to be amazed by the world again
i want to have all the optomism in the world again
i want it to be warm again
i want to smell happiness and love again

dear lord, save my life. from my knees to your ears, save my god forsaken life.

what it comes down to is this ( Read more... )

i am feeling unworthy, unjust, and lost. all together intertwiningly in this twisted moment of existance ( Read more... )

dan on the chair
coach on the bed, sleeping and angry
trace next to me reading
me at the computer, typing

Ramada Inn
12 52 A.M.

I don't like college. I don't like class. I will eventually drop out.

i woudl sitll die for you

Alyssa, In spite of what you said to me on the phone today, I just want you to know that I love you and pray for you all the time. I don't say evil, bad things about you at all. It really hurts me to think that you think I do. Hopefully, someday, God will show you the truth and you will stop believing that lie. I left a message on Mrs. Freire ( Read more... )

Sleep last week from a bottle of non prescription drugs. But this week I am sick, hopefully not from "dependence", whatev er that means. No, that's not it. No more ciggarettes, who am i trying to kidd. It's rediculous. "Well, I'm one to get addicted to things, very dependent that is, so its hard to answer the question alyssa" i'm not, " ( Read more... )

if i never speak to you again
it'd be too soon.

I peed in the snow last night
I drank robitoson LIQUID through a funnel, and orange juice from a teaspoon
and todayy mee and brittsy took outtt my fathers car while no one was home
:-o

ihate school so fucking much its sickening
fuckthe glass menagerie
fuck you, hoenstly, fuck you.