shit man. i havent been on this shit in sooo long, but i mean really. what do i have to say, its a vicious cycle. i dont post anything, nobody reads what i dont post and i dont get any responses, which is alright by me. because frankly, i think that people are morons. a majority of people, but im bitter and cynical. but seriously though, people ( Read more... )

another boring night. i guess ( Read more... )

i just dont get it. i dont think i relate to anybody ( Read more... )

i wish i could speak better. i wish i could articulate myself in a way fitting all this shit that i have on my chest. but when i try to yell i can think of the words to say. its like i got all these things on my mind but my mind isnt sharp enough to get it out on time. im struggling like everybody to find their identity, my voice. mabye someday ill ( Read more... )

right now im feeling as though im in the middle of a nervous breakdown. i dont know i havent done anything today except play video games. im just trapped and im going crazy, none of my old friends make any sense to me, i dont think i have any friends anymore really, depending on the deffinition of "friend" im a cool guy, people like me. but i ( Read more... )

so yeah... im not sick anymore, which is totally bitchin, because for the last few days ive gone from not bein able to hold down water, but i got a little better and blah blah blah. but now its like, now what? now that im not worried about being healthy, what do i do with my time. hopefully it will be dry so i can skate tomarow, jesus stevo wanted ( Read more... )

ahh yes, time for me to get my two fucking cents in (the fucking makes it tougher) but anyways it was my birthday yeasterday. birthdays suck, because there just like any other day, but for some reason im supposed to be happy? no! im still depressed, stupid medicine not working, bitchass! whatever. but someone was talking about fat chicks wearing ( Read more... )

its a tough ordeal to go through, but fairly typical of the mariners organization, but alas, there still my mariners. and i love them i dont care what you say. represent!

and on that note, i got dumped by my girlfriend. and all the kids are in school. makes me lonely thats for damn sure. ill keep tryin to get a job, but you know my luck. oh well.

yeah for some reason my girlfriend has stopped talking to me, i bought the mars volta today, i like it but i think i like at the drive in more. im wasting my time with nothing, it drives me crazy, i wish i knew what was going on, i wish girls didnt always fuck me up so bad, its my fault. whatever

like a shot to the fucking brain. i cant take this anymore. but i figure, hey man, livejournal, thats yet another pointless way to fill your waking hours. the way i see it, were all rich brats who dont have real problems so we have to make them up, im like the fucking poster child here. well, shit isnt gonna just fall in my lap. so whatever, ill ( Read more... )