so i din't eat all day
and my rents just tried to get me to eat dinner. haha.
I took the hamburger went to get some diet pop
and bam
hello trash can.

I'm good.

Today was terrible..
I manged through the school day with no calories
then I got home and ate two power bars
and 1/2 a bowl of cereal.
shot me.

Today is the first day.
I'm getting control back now.
So far nothing.

Its been weeks since i"ve enven allowed myself back on this journal, Imade enw ones and kept busy often hoping that distraction might help. It hasn't my thoughts always seem to come back to this, and I have prom next saturday. I'm huge. I have no idea how huge but its bad.

I miss my control.

I dont know what i want
I want to get the fuck over this
but I want it to happen over night

I dont know how to eat normally. I hate this.

I got out of dinner. I did the spit and chew ( Read more... )

So last night ( Read more... )

I wasn't starting my new diet/regain of control till tomorrow.

However today. Easter.

I consumed.

1 lollypop>60Cals.
6 Diet cokes> 0 Cals.
2 Hot chocolates> 300 Cals.

I'm rad.

[Apr. 7th, 2007|03:39 pm ( Read more... )

( I had to write about it. )