Im pretty high right now but I cant really tell if Im depressed.  I think I am.  I think I really just feel very put down right now.  I dont know why.  Well I do know but Im not high enough to put aside my sense of logic.  Maybe logis..but not common sense...or envy.  Envy is what it is.  It eats you up inside and for some reason it does not ever ( Read more... )

So I met a girl yesterday.  Her name is Amanda but Im not very sure.  Yesterday we established the fact that since we only see each other once a week we will probably forget our names pretty often, but it makes our meetings more interesting.  You know?? I could talk about her for hours but i guess I wont since I have a boyfriend who reads this and ( Read more... )

I would sit here and completely bash Chemistry and all its teachings but no...chemistry is not all that bad.  A very challenging, therefor interseting class.  Its the teacher.  I hate that man.  So much.  Ugh ( Read more... )

So I'm still alive, and still as hypochondric as ever.  
But I think the worst is over.  Sometimes I go through weird hypochonric periods where I become completely introverted for a while because I'm measuring my vital signs every second.  But Now I'm pulling ot again.

I'm Glad Holden came and chilled today.  I missed Holden.  I didn't think I ( Read more... )

Its not normal for me to feel like this all the time.  My eye feels like it has something stuck in it....I'm lightheaded but I have a migrane...I'm hot but cold...I'm disoriented...I constantly zone out....      I think I'm dying ( Read more... )

I'm sorry I can' have the smae opinions and values as other peoples...I'm sorry that I dont think exactly the same way you do....and I'm so very sorry I can be an incovenience at times.  But isnt that everybody?????   Am I really the only person on this planet that can be a pain in the ass?  I may be uptight about somethings...but that just shows I ( Read more... )

we might as well break up because this shit is getting ridiculous and we are obviously not good for each others  sense of well being.

Something horrible happened in the mall today.  I'm not going to talk abou it...but I am going to say this ( Read more... )

Waiting for my mom to get here and pick me up.  It blows not having a car.  I'll get it back sunday when they leave though...that and my sanity ( Read more... )

So maybe we shouldn't be too sure...We think things will work out our way...but then I begin seeing things as they truly are.

And in those moments of clarity, I long for one thing.