GOD i feel so depressed during the night. i don't know what to do. during the day, i'm fine, but after being alone for so many hours at night, i just want to die. i'm being overly dramatic right now but i honestly don't know why i feel this way ( Read more... )

i really feel like i don't have any friends a lot of the time. i have tons of friends, who are more like acquaintances. i have about 20 friends that i genuinely like. 3/4 close friends that i like. 1 "best" friend... whom i can tell almost anything to, but more than likely will choose not to. so when i'm depressed in my room all alone, why do i ( Read more... )

my econ exam dropped me down from a solid A to a solid B. so i guess it could be worse but i'm still bummed out about it.
i freaking hate tuesdays/thursdays because after school, i try to get everything done that i need to get done but since i don't work those days usually, my mom thinks she can order me around to do her errands. fucking irritating

ps: because of the fact that i feel like i did so horribly on one of my exams today, i predict that i will have no motivation whatsoever to do well during the rest of this semester. i hope i can prove myself wrong though ( Read more... )

the most stupid feeling in the world is when you feel that aren't good enough for somebody. i've been through it numerous times, and let me tell you, it sucks. but now i look back on it & think, "why was i like this?" unless you are some totally fucked up crazy psycho, why would anyone else be so much "better" than you? what makes other people so ( Read more... )

... the entry before this said "the only thing you HAVE to do is die ( Read more... )

i was just looking at the scrapbook i made last year & i got sad ( Read more... )

i just spent 2 weeks with max, the guy i met in england. he came out here and stayed with my family. it's crazy, now that he's gone, my whole family misses him. so do i. he wants to try and move out here to be with me in about 6 weeks. that is so crazy to me. i want him to but i'm afraid that it wont work out for whatever reason so i'd feel bad for ( Read more... )

The weight of too many responsibilities, perhaps involving family, maybe concerning a job or group affiliation, could be very much on your mind today, dear Pisces. You may feel like Atlas, carrying the world on his shoulders! And you're tired. Perhaps you need to re-evaluate your commitments. Your innate kindness may have caused you to make too ( Read more... )

day one of being back in the states ( Read more... )