my little brother had a green card courthouse wedding today with this Filipino girl he met in April. meanwhile, my marriage is falling apart. fun.

man, I've been feeling so depressed lately. I feel like parts of my life are finally coming together and simultaneously falling apart. it's so overwhelming and I already hate stress as it is. I wish I knew the answers. I just wish I were happy.

i'm having a rough day

my body is uncooperative and stupid. or maybe i am the stupid one for getting myself into this mess.  i've been on a very strict calorie-packing diet for the last week and my weight has not changed in the slightest. i am eating about 2-3 times what i was eating when i was losing weight and my weight actually keeps going back down every time i turn ( Read more... )

top 5 craziest things i have ever done:

1. went skydiving
2. pierced my belly button (twice)
3. my english romance
4. plastic surgery
5. getting married

today has been so crazy. i've been so overly stressed out, anxious, and so on that my day started off kind of bad and overly emotional.  jason and i got into it a little because he was stressed out. he waited until the last minute to do a lot of the things he needed to get done. just as i was pulling up to work, i got a text from my friend tamara ( Read more... )

life only gives you what you can [barely] handle.

dude. my life is an emotional roller coaster. up down up down. i can't handle it. at least i am up right now, but am i going to come down again? i've never been this bad before, but every week it seems like i am balling my eyes out at least once. is it me? is it my new life? i don't know. i just want to be stress free for once. i want to go on a ( Read more... )

i've been watching true life: i need a bone marrow transplant for about 5 minutes and i am already crying like a baby.  it hits too close to home :( my friend danny went through all of the same things this poor guy is going through; he died and it just sucks. it's not fair.

one baby to another says
i'm lucky to have met you
i don't care what you think
unless it is about me

it is now my duty to completely drain you