I feel so weird lately. I'm overanalizing every little detail in my life ( Read more... )

My girl and I are still in no speaking terms, which hurts me like a thousands knives. But, I believe it'll be better to have some time apart. I have grow apart from friends but never a friendship of mine has ended like this and I won't allow it to happen now. I really miss her. I am just hoping that this works out for the best ( Read more... )

I saw pictures of him today! Damn it! He's so cute and he looked so good! I gotta stop this!

i feel so full and big and fat and bad and ugly.

i really hate pmsing

Oh, God! Politicians can be incredibly annoying. I'm reading news now. I believe in politics with all my heart, but politicians? that's a different story. They lost my trust and respect since I was born ( Read more... )

My girl friend deleted his last voicemail. So, all I have now is the memory of his voice. "You are living of memories and that won't do you any good", she said. She's most definitely right. But, now I don't even have his voice. I miss him. I really, really do. I know he's so not worth all this suffering. But I can't seem to remember anything bad ( Read more... )

We won again!!! Against Angola this time. I didn't saw the game though, I was in class.

I saw him. He didn't saw me, I think. I was a wreck, once I was safe in the bathroom.

I have a "thought jam" in my mind. I'll continue later.

I don't know why I've been feeling so anxious lately. But, I did some thinking today. I know since forever that I am so incredibly insecure. I seriously do not believe that I am good enough. And, maybe that's why I act so bitchy at times. I am so vulnerable also. I always look for what others have. Or so I feel. I am not feeling worthy lately. ( Read more... )

I want to see him..... so bad! But at the same time, I am just not ready yet. Here's what I want: for him to see me and regret what he did. But I don't know if that's even possible. I don't feel as confident as I did when we first were together. I am afraid of what I will project when we see each other again. The clock is ticking. We will see each ( Read more... )

Hahahaha! We won! Puerto Rico beat the US Dream Team by 19 points (92-73). Sure, it is not a Dream Team, but it does represent where you ego takes you and your country when you believe that representing your country in Olympics isn't good enough! Hahahaha! Oh, I'm so happy! I have seen the game twice. I just absolutely adored it ( Read more... )

I've realized today that most of my post in this journal are about him. What a waste? I don't know really.