Why do we feel the need to excessively expose ourselves to things that will only make us feel worse? i.e. pictures of adoptable dogs that i can never have or, you know, facebook? continually waiting for things that will never happen. i think its the morbidity in all of us. anyways, ive decided to once again cut down on the amount of my exposure to ( Read more... )

so i've been sifting through many of my past entries, mostly to determine which ones are acceptable for public view, and i've made a few observations ( Read more... )

so here's the plan. i'll take a few months to see how things pan out, and also to work towards getting in shape. if things dont resolve themselves, then i'll join up. at this point i'm thinking army or air force. i still like the idea of the marines, but lets be honest: at this point im in no position to make it through their officer training ( Read more... )

so i've caught a lot of flak for posting blogs on Myspace (isn't that part of why its there?) not because i've said anything bad or out of turn, but because i'm "letting people in too easily". i'm confused. if you dont want to know the inner workings of my mind, then don't read the blog. if you do, well then be prepared to take all that comes along ( Read more... )

its been really important to be lately to start putting a name to my emotions. so here's one: bitter. not angry, especially not at any particular person. just bitter because i'm right. again. i've realized that its the little things that get to me because those are the things you cant fortell. they're so easy to get caught up in, but you cant ( Read more... )

i have less than 3 pages done of my 15 page paper and i just cant motivate myself to finish it. i just bought an amazingly cute new dress that i cant wait to wear out. work is gonna be lame tonight. nice weather means everyone will be out, and the hawaiian has the day off. nice night to speed through my close, although i'll probably have a mountain ( Read more... )

i've realized that i have an almost scary obsession with being the center of attention. i get so angry with others, even people that i normally genuinely like, just because someone's noticing them instead of me. although i do feel there are some people i have legitimate issues with, including a certain someone who really needs to learn to mind her ( Read more... )

You Are a Visionary Soul
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fuck syracuse. i'm officially done with it. i'll be going back on my birthday for one day and i'll say my goodbyes then. there's nothing there for me anymore.

new years in a nutshell ( Read more... )