am i the only one who can hold this kind of love in front of you? make you this mad? make you this ecstatic? make you think this much about life after 20....after 21, 22, 23, 30? and we think about california, as if it's the shining light at the end of the tunnel. to change our life into something flourishing, instead of just managing to get ( Read more... )

in winston for the night. petsmarts pretty much riding my ass. it's hard working in grooming, and even harder not having a normal schedule. came home to do the christmas tree tradition with the fam and missed out on a great gwar show according to travis. speaking of travis we're doing really well. he'll have his recording and engineering ( Read more... )

thanksgiving is in two days. coming back to winston after work. i'm looking foward to a big home cooked meal and family time. and i know ace is looking foward to seeing his girlfriends. i wish i had off tomorrow. i wish alot of things. travis left today. so did yoda. its lonely in this apartment without them.

went to the party at tori's last night. it was fun. josh was wasted, rach was wasted. i didn't start feeling drunk until the drive home. i just ended up passing out when we got back to the house ( Read more... )

seriously...it has. i've gained weight....i guess thats what happens when you dont have money for real food, and when noone will CLEAN THEIR GODDAMN DISHES SO I CAN COOK....i hate dirty boys and cokeheads. except for acey the little jew. no i'm not being discriminatory for the last time. he's getting a complex because i call him sugar butt ( Read more... )

i'm still in boone ( Read more... )

If love was air I would suffocate. I have so little love left to give because my kindess, my adoration, my love has been raped and taken from my own body. I feel so little that its killing who I once was ( Read more... )

I have a ten page paper due in two-three days and I catch myself finding anything I can to pull it off. I'm sick today (I should've known I would be since Travis is). I officially hate being sick away from home. Mom always took care of me like I was still 5 years old. I miss my family the same way I would miss oxygen under the pacific. I went ( Read more... )

I'm missing mom, dad, rachie, and travis. But, being away from my twin is the oddest and most heart crushing thing there is....so i got something for her...i got it FOR HER! and it did hurt quite a bit...you'll understand, El Diablo.

( rachie the rabbit, all for you )

in two days, i will be on my way to the wonderful boone (cheap weed, hippies, and hopefully an education). as much as i hate winston i feel bad about leaving people behind. i am looking foward to a little extra freedom but not the loss of privacy. i will take some pictures the day i move in and will most likely be posting more entries while i'm up ( Read more... )