I read back through so many of these journal entries and also a few from old friends, people i considered closer than blood. i did some fucked up shit back in those days and the saddest part is that i cant even remember what i did that was so bad to be abandoned by everyone ive eer been close to. but that was then this is now ( Read more... )

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i just read my last update from two years ago, wow. my chest feels hollow and vacant. as happy and positive as i try to be and despite how much i push the last five years out of my heart, mind and soul; i still hurt. this is perpetual. i dont think it will ever leave me. too much has happened, and things could never be the same. on a positive note ( Read more... )

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You oughta see your face
You oughta hear your voice
Last time I was here
I wouldn't turn around
You oughta lock that door
Somebody might get in
Didn't I teach you that

This perfect world
So blue I can't begin to say
This perfect world
I know I never should have gone away
But I still deserve to say goodbye
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FUCK YOU.
you suck, im soo glad my girl comes home soon &
bitch shes livin with me.
:D
atleast i got one person to be in
the wedding. fuck yes

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time to be a ghost