i am incredibly desperate for something unfamiliar i just drove for 2 hours with absolutely no destination and i didnt think about anything i have just been so emotionless the past two weeks its starting to get to me
my nephew said the most beautiful simple thing to me tonight we walked outside at my sisters mind you she lives in the middle of nowhere anyways we walked outside and i pointed to the sky and said "whats that" and he responded "the moon" and i said "what are those beside it" talking about the stars and he responded "fireworks silly"
i love coming home from work and being greeted with wonderful news like (adam your nephew is in the hospital, he quit breathing,the doctors dont know whats wrong with him) frankly, im scared shitless.... i love that kid as if he were my own and if i lose him i will literally go insane...i just dont fucking know what to do