I just want to be done. I don’t actually have time to write this but the longer I spend working on projects the closer I get to crying. I feel like such a failure. I don’t even know why I’m in school right now. Was it just another distraction? Another few letters to add after my name to make me feel better when I’m still working at a shitty job ( Read more... )

Today has been hard for several reasons. Instead of welling on them I would like to start thinking about tomorrow, about Thanksgiving and the things I am thankful for in my life. A lot has changed over the last year, and I’ve reached many different milestones that I never thought I would or even could accomplish, so I’m letting myself look back at ( Read more... )

I'm home. That seems weird to say since I was barely gone 48 hours. I feel both recharged and completely unmotivated to dive back into school. I didn't think I'd love New Orleans so much, or that i'd be head over heels for authentic creole food immediately. I wasn’t sure how I’d feel about actually doing Halloween things for Halloween, or taking a ( Read more... )

I'm exhausted and stressed beyond belif but i leave for New Orleans in three days and i'm not going to think about school once.

okay i'll probably think about school a lot. that's okay though. I'm a grad student. 

( Even you don't want to read this )

Some feelings:
I want to stop saying sorry. This doesn't mean i want to stop apologizing for things that deserve apologizing over. I should work on getting better at that too. My sincere apologizes tend to sound mechanic and aggressive. However “sorry” spills out of my mouth at least a dozen times a day over things like opinions and people bumping ( Read more... )

I woke up in a pissy mood. I didn't sleep well. Some of the finer points of Modern Romance were still swirling around in my head (they still are.) I woke wanting to start a fight, or cry, or do something in of a melodramatic nature ( Read more... )

Today was so nice. Actually this entire weekend was nice. I am so happy to have such amazing, positive people in my life. I feel so incredibly lucky all the time, and know that no matter what challenges i'll face this year i'll be surrounded by people who care about me, who are proud, and who have watched me grow over the last 12 months into ( Read more... )

I've always wanted to be one of those people who care about anniversaries, dates, that sort of thing. I'm good with remembering birthdays, and of course i'm a sucker for holidays, but other things fall through the wayside.

Like personal stuff for me, when I started writing obsessively in my live journal (which i've since kind of stopped, but still ( Read more... )

I should make a rule not to write on my period ( Read more... )