it's been awhile but today seemed to be the day.. I hope no one has forgotten our friend on this friday, march 13. it's been a hard one for me to deal with this year. I'm not sure why some years seem to be harder than others. but it's still a battle.

I'm not sure why but I really wish heath ledger was still alive

it's foggy and cold out so I'm having one of those quiet, indulgent nights. I went to the market and got some red wine and chocolate chip cookie dough icecream. I'm definitely going to need to go to the gym for a LONG time tomorrow, but I'm enjoying myself tonight! I'm in cozy sleepwear, I turned all the lights off and turned the white christmas ( Read more... )

I feel weird and lonely. I haven't felt this in a long time. I miss James. Even when he's right in front of my face. But I'm excited to go to sf

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last night I got home from san francisco- I got a ride with my dad; I love him so much. I rode the train up on thursday night. it was really long and fun and the scenery was amazing. I sat next to a 5 year old girl and she was hilarious. she totally gets it. her mom, on the other hand, maybe not so much. my two brothers, jake and abram picked me up ( Read more... )

I took a week off work to go to seattle, but due to recent changes in my relationship status, I canceled my plane ticket. James still went. I thought it would be good for him to go hang out with his brother. I'm pretty sad that I'm not in seattle, but I am having so much fun here! There's something so amazing about staying home and just taking time ( Read more... )

I had this weird dream about kevin. I used to dream about him a lot right after he died, but I haven't in a couple years. In my dream, I saw him walking across the street and I ran after him and stopped him. I was freaking out, asking him where he had been all this time if he was still alive. he told me that he had to leave for four years and that ( Read more... )

I had such a fun weekend! On friday night, James and I went to this show at the buchon house. Then we were going to walk home and decided to stop at mccarthy's to go to the bathroom. we saw a bunch of people that we liked so we stayed for a drink, then went over to a party. It was SUCH a fun party. I hung out with these cute gay boys all night ( Read more... )

james is getting a haircut right now. I can't wait to see what he's going to look like.. seeing as how I've been cutting his hair for the past few months. but I just felt like it wasn't really fair for him cause he's so cute and he deserves a really cute haircut. my cousin came to see me this week. she got here monday and left yesterday. I was sick ( Read more... )