Well im trying to have a happy entry..ok what happen today already...oh i went to the doctors.. ahhhh she freaked me out....AHHHH!! but i am fine now... my sister and i talked about it...she told me how my mom knows i am gay for sure now....awww that makes me so happy, now i dont have to fake being bi...grrr!!! im so gay haha i want to get married ( Read more... )

ok...this week already started out shitty.. i got a call from the doctor rite before i lefted for school. anyways what she said will change my life.. my PAP(a girl thing) has came back abnormal.. that means i got cancer cells in..Well my junk area...WTF i told Anastasia that i was scared that that would happen...i cant talked to her yet but i dont ( Read more... )

well here i am ...grrr im pissed off at the world and i dont have a good reason. people are bothering me so bad rite now.. i hate men...i hate stupid questions that i always get...they are making me go insane...grrrrrr.... i need help i need someone to talk too.. but the sad thing is that i cant talk.. i wont talk!! it all builds up in me and im ( Read more... )

another update.. im feeling better but i am still sick. about the g/f well we doing ok rite now.. i miss her so much but i dont know... i have been talking to some of my ex's and they are telling me shit that i dont want to hear but i still somewhat hear it. anyways i fucking love my girl.. oh oh once again i skipped class im bored with it!! it's ( Read more... )

well here is an update.. my good old pa (grandpa) died on thursday but we found out on friday so i took the day off and spent it with the family...i finally stopped crying!!! i love the fact that people dont know were i am, half the time. so i got to spend time alone like i needed too. once again i find myself skipping school to grieve. monday was ( Read more... )

well ok lets talk everyone...i hate school i want to quitthe only reason i'm here is cuz of my g/f....i love her so much and this weekend we are taking a road trip and spending time together.. we are so cute together.. awwwww !!!! anyways be happy for me for once everyone...haha so ya bakc to the GRRRRR...i hate the fact i have anger problems.. i ( Read more... )

well i got laid...haha so ya anyways i havn't wrote in here forever so here i am.. im in love with a girl oh well whats new.. i have started school once again.. it's so boring!!! the whole break i was drinking going to clubs and making out with random people..i had wonderful lezbo sex last nite hahaha bi oh oh im going to have more this week..... ( Read more... )

hey guys.. well im pissed off at well i dont fuckin know....so ya i hate girls i hope they all die..stasha did something to piss me off.. i dont know ... i called summer she is heading off to NY to be with her sister this x-mas...it's all good... i dont know people are just pissing me off i think it is pms or something grrrr i hate myself too

well heaven seems so far away... haha only if i beleived in heaven.. so ya Stasha and i always talk.. man i love that fucking girl.. SUMMER if you read this call me damn it.. you are way to bust to get a hold of. so ya Summer is somewhere in NewYork having fun getting drunk and all the bull shit.. i miss her so much!!! but ya stasha got mad at me ( Read more... )

im pissed off and sad and even more pissed off.. .damn Stasha...grrrr!!! i dont know what to think about anyone anymore..girls lie and fuck with my head...grrrr i should be str8.. than i dont have to worry about stupid girl problems.. i held the tears in untell i got to school and jen talked to me and it just made me cry.. not in a bad way!!!! so ( Read more... )