so new york was awesome as always. so awesome that i think that i'm going to move there permanently. now dont jump on me yet guys. i kno that i say that every year but this year i might actually be serious. i found things there this year that i havent found there before. like... a new life with a lot of bright aspects for the future. i had such a ( Read more... )

just wanted to say au revoir to everyone before i leave for ny i love you guys!

lexa

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i passed all my tests at steak n shake today so i am now a certified waitress! YES! i get to start makin mad money tomoro and i am extremely excited! everybody come in and see me i work anywhere from 7 a.m. to 5 p.m. depending on the day. i love you guys!

lexi

its amazing how so many good feelings i've felt can disapear instantly. all hope can be snatched from me. yesterday me and kyle had an amazing talk. i really thought that i had reached him and i felt like he had really opened up to me. it was so wonderful from so many angles. the rest of the day i felt refreshed and full of hope for today. but all ( Read more... )

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i think the nighttime brings out the worst in people. when you're sitting around alone with little or nothing to do but dwell in your thoughts. to think about the what ifs and if thens ( Read more... )

two days ago kyle made me walk like 2 miles while we talked about stuff. and i was wearing flip flops. my toe is now a huge ball of red blister. it hurts so bad. i didnt realize that it looked as bad as it did until i looked at it tonight. its all red and bloody. just a big mess. i dont kno what that has to do with anything besides the fact that ( Read more... )

2 Am and she calls me cause I'm still awake ( Read more... )

Sadomasichism is defined as a satanic habit of physically or emotionally abusing one's self to relieve pain or make up for past hurts. In the movie Secretary Maggie Gyllanhaal plays one such person as she strives for the love of the man she works for. all people bring pain on themselves. i have decided that after i have poured in on myself in every ( Read more... )