Well, I really suppose I should update this thing more often now that I'm a part of the bbocs community (whee ( Read more... )

Hmmm... not much has been going on lately, except a lot of people around me and such are thinking about suicide...myself included. Meh. Weird thing happened the other day. Went to the counsellor appointment. Kinda brought me out of the mood I'd been in for awhile... Also made me think about myself a lot more. Woke up thinking "What the fuck am I ( Read more... )

Hmmm... not much has been going on lately, except a lot of people around me and such are thinking about suicide...myself included. Meh. Weird thing happened the other day. Went to the counsellor appointment. Kinda brought me out of the mood I'd been in for awhile... Also made me think about myself a lot more. Woke up thinking "What the fuck am I ( Read more... )

Oops, accidentally pressed the "update journal" button without writing anything. Heh, fortunately, it didn't update it. *giggle*. Tonight was a fun night. I did some drawing. I have to say that is one of the times I am actually enjoying myself, ... when I'm drawing. The problem is that a lot of the time I don't have the motivation to draw. :(. ( Read more... )

Okay, I slept all day today. I have been sleeping far too much lately. 15 hours? Yeesh. I am also in the middle of a moral/emotional dilemma, as usual. *Sigh* Why can't someone else just figure these things out for me? I'm afraid that even if someone else could, I wouldn't be satisfied no matter what happened.Eeep.

Well... I'm in a tiny bit better of a mood than I was last night. Still really depressed though, but that probably isn't going to change anytime soon... I really don't have much to type about.. my life really isn't that interesting. One of my acquaintances might commit suicide... It's kinda scaring me... but I don't know what to do about it. I can ( Read more... )

I knew I shouldn't have started to listen to music. Reminds me of everything shitty in life right now. I wish things were easier, and I didn't have to deal with a lot of stuff. I don't know how long it's been since I came back from Ottawa, but I'm still Extremely depressed about the whole situation, and can't stop thinking about it. It really sucks ( Read more... )