I’m sure at one point or another we all feel put out by our friends. A third wheel, perhaps, or just not belonging to a certain clique. Though I’ve been mildly hurt by being a third wheel, what hurts worse is being seen and unseen all at once. Sappy as it sounds, the moments I remember most of being invisible is when it comes to love and ( Read more... )

i love him. he doesn't love me. he doesn't see me like that.

i still want him to be happy.

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I haven't posted in forever. I should be getting ready for bed. I've got Calculus to do, dreams to dream and a shower to take. Well, maybe not in that order.

I think I'll just post this so I'll feel accomplished.
 

Well, on top of everything...

I didn't do my math. I didn't get the notes and at this point, I'm saying, "Fuck it."

I sent Brandon two texts and quite frankly, I give up on that "relationship". We're not going anywhere and I'm tired of being let down. I know he has work, he's busy, he's tired, blah, blah, blah, but I am too; all I ask is for a "I'm ( Read more... )

I'm not sure what to think anymore. I know how I feel; I know I want Brandon. Just, lately, it's been really hard, especially with not talking to him or anything. Now, I know he doesn't trust me.

I might think things, say things, feel things, but I'm not going to go off and cheat on him. If I wanted to be with someone else, I'd break up with him. I ( Read more... )

I finally changed my profile song to Mariah Carey (on MySpace). I've had a weird feeling in my head all day, but now it's finally a full fledged headache.
My aunt left this morning for Virginia and got there about an hour ago. I've done my studying for US History and Physics; I'm almost done with my notebook for Engish but I need, like, ten more ( Read more... )

I'm not sure how to approach this week anymore. Last night, my random ramble-blog was completely from my subconscious, because I was half-asleep doing everything. I'm still in a daze from today; I should be in bed taking a several-hour nap, but I'm getting strength from the most unlikely person (or perhaps, most obvious), as I keep waiting to hear ( Read more... )

My internet died for about thirty-minutes, so in the mean time, I took a shower. I just about broke down crying because I forgot to plug in my Zune, which I should actually go retrieve...

Found it.

My nose has been running like a bitch for the past several days. And ugh. I have to clean out the car tomorrow morning because Sam is probably going to ( Read more... )

Well, I suppose I'll start with a poem that I wrote during 4th period. It's titled, "12:16PM"

i'm feeling who i am
i see your perception
i understand
this transparency doesn't work.
beautiful make-up
not a beautiful face
wonderful outfit
distorted body beneath.
if i could change it all
i would happily leave
reincarnate me as dumb
slow
but stunning and beautiful
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I've a migraine the size of a grapefruit, or perhaps the size of a crater left by a grapefruit made of marble that ended up pounding into my forehead. Nonetheless, I'm here on the computer, typing up a review of my crazy day.
Okay, fuck it. I can't type a review. Let's just start with me being miserable all fucking day long. I don't know why, ( Read more... )