I'm sick of feeling guilty for my own success.
I'm sick of constantly sabatoging myself.
I'm sick of apologizing for everything I do right.
Why do I do it?
What am I afraid of?
Making mistakes.

I am really happy that spring is starting. I am getting spring fever. I gotta quit the Depot soon. I swear to God, as soon as the sun warms up just a little more there is NO WAY I'm makin' lattes on a Saturday. NO WAY. I am not working there in the summer either. Today and yesterday I have started the uphill climb on getting better from the third ( Read more... )

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Right now I have five jobs for the summer... yeeeah I need to quit a couple ( Read more... )

Soooo this weekend was really fun. Friday I hung out with Sean Choi, Lorraine, and Noel... what a crowd. We went to the Citrus Circus/Loren's brother's band and went to Zack and Simon's party and went to Sean's and Denny's (where I saw the infamous KIM! (not Lasus) ) !!! Haha I have to tell Mr. Fuck me (as named by katie... definitely agreed upon ( Read more... )

I have come to the conclusion that I love when people say my name or touch my arm or shoulder when they are talking to me. Especially men. Actually I realized that kind of a long time ago. But I just re-realized it. Ilovemenilovemenilovemen.

Today I thought I was going to get a ride home from work from the big Pete, but he actually got off three hours earlier than me. So like an hour before dusk, I made myself some coffee (duh), stopped by pearls to talk to the big C (also to get free ice cream and chocolate syrup... my dinners are so healthy lately), and headed home down East ( Read more... )

Katie's party last night was insane. And I have the fucking pictures to prove it. Only there was like a 20 to 1 ratio of girls to guys which sucked my dick... because that wasn't what I was doing. Wow I'm so clever. I can't even go out tonight. So I just went to Pearls and hung out with Katie and Cecily and now I'm home online hoping that a certain ( Read more... )

This week has been pretty fun. I have sort of been ditching a lot lately, and I kind of have to get a handle on that shit. I have swum actually every day this week though, so I'm like, Go Elisa! And I have finished the whole workout every time too, except last night, I stopped with like 150 yards to go because I got a fat cramp in my toe and it ( Read more... )

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