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Oh my god… thank you god. I woke up today and I feel sane again. Thank god for being moody. I don’t feel like life is amazing, but I don’t want to die anymore. I don’t feel like hurting myself anymore. I’m okay. He’s distant enough from my mind where I can think straight and not go psycho. I don’t think I’ll be speaking to him again for a while. If ( Read more... ) -
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I did an entire DJ set on soundcloud. www.soundcloud.com/users/tyrantdestroyed i think ( Read more... ) -
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I had been cutting myself profusely until there was blood everywhere and had popped 4 ativan at once, and in a whim of desperation I called Ian and told him everything. I was crying and I told him I loved him. He replied "yeah?" and I said "yes". The "yeah" was confusion since I spent such a long time not speaking with him. But he told me he loved ( Read more... ) -
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The one time I start to feel anything, ofcourse it's immense pain. Ofcourse it's heartbreak. Ofcourse I'm stupid enough to let it happen again. Ofcourse I obsess, freak out, and ofcourse I'm drenching my bed in tears, going absolutely insane with no outlet, no way to make myself better, no suggestions able to make me feel good again, no feelings of ( Read more... ) -
I cannot wait for summer, I cannot wait for June
Life is generally about hate and disturbance for a borderline, and imbalance of, in, and about pretty much everything. Relationships, friendships, family, you name it. Anything having to do with other people, there's a serious imbalance, pain, suffering, or just plain frustration. I've definitely REALLY noticed it recently. Like, REALLY. I don't ( Read more... ) -
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And the "bonding with dad" Saga continues ( Read more... ) -
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Seeing an ad on the side of the screen was a moment of awakening for me just now. It was a cellphone ad. On valentine's day, this average looking blonde woman texts her hubby "I ♥ U" and sends him a picture blowing a dampened kiss, mimicking the dry dampened tone of this cold, insensitive yawnsville we call "The way of the world". Because these two ( Read more... ) -
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well this is funny. i got the lj app for my android and it's not like i have anything profound to say but i mainly wanted to get it because no one uses livejournal anymore. i haven't used my laptop all day which is a huge accomplishment. i really don't want to chat with any of the 4 or 5 people who have been bugging me and bugging me and bugging me ( Read more... )
