So it's been a year and a 1/2 since I've been on here, (wow).  Since I posted; I've been engaged, had a baby, gotten married (to John), lived in another state, moved back here, tryed to kill myself, been separated, gotten engaged again (Chris), pregnant again, broken up, and now I'm just here 8 months pregnant with a baby who's father wants nothing ( Read more... )

You realize what you miss most when you no longer have them in your relationship. And it's funny 'cause you know at the begginning it's not always going to be that way... you just miss it like hell when it's not. I miss knowing that he loves me just from looking in his eyes.. I miss knowing that I'm all he wants and not having to worry about the ( Read more... )

John's gone for two weeks this time.... doesn't come home till the 7th. that's too far away. I miss him. Miss is an understatement, I'm going insane without him. I'm showing now, but it's funny 'cause no one can really tell. Felt the baby kick for the first time the other day, it felt funny...

John's on his ship all this week... come home on friday, two days left. I hate not having him with me. I can't sleep when he's gone, I wake up every 1/2 hour. I'm starting to grow out of my cloths, we knew this would happen. You can't expect to get pregnant and wear the same cloths through out the entire time. Unless you're on crack that is. Took ( Read more... )

So I was dying my hair a brighter red than what I had already and.... when I washed it out.... it turned out.... PINK................ GODDAMN IT ( Read more... )

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John's mom wants us to get married. If John were to ask me I'd say yes... but I don't think he'll be asking anytime soon even if I am having his child

So the little Alien (child) growing in my tummy keeps making me sick... I don't think losing 15pounds is a good thing right now......

I have something important to tell some people but it's been a while since I have been able to speak to them :(......

Right now I'm waiting to have to leave for work... I get off at three and then I'm back here to meet with my guy (John) so I can help him move into his new place. The last few nights I've gotten very little sleep 'cause Sheena hates seeing me and John together and keeps telling us how we've betrayed her. She's supposed to be marrying my brother but ( Read more... )