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Ugliness
I just watched the movie "Beastly". It's a good movie, but it got me thinking, about beauty mainly. If you don't know, it's a modern take on "Beauty and the Beast". In the end, the Beauty sees that the Beast, while ugly outside, is beautiful inside. That premise makes me think, makes me realize. Probably think too much, but whatever. No matter how ( Read more... ) -
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Dream last night was vampires, and the night before that was nothing. Maybe Queen Mab has gotten bored and is now leaving me alone... on other news... PS march 3 PE march 8 -
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I feel like the most worthless human being. My only saving grace is God, and most of my friends even call bullshit on THAT. So I say fuck it... if you aren't family or God, and you want to be in my life, you can damned well seek me out. I'm tired of doing the seeking and being rejected, or made to feel unacceptable because of one thing or the other ( Read more... ) -
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I remember what it felt like to be held in his arms. I remember how his kiss felt, tasted. I can still feel the warmth of him wrapped around me, and though I know it would never have worked, I can't help but miss him desperately sometimes. My heart is mostly free, but there's still one stubborn little spot in it where his memory clings fiercly, and ( Read more... ) -
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"Cuz every time we touch, I get this feeling, and every time we kiss I swear I can fly, oh my heart beats fast i want it to last need you by my side ( Read more... ) -
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Wow, it's only been two years since I updated.... So much has happened, especially in the last month. I'm getting out of the navy, I'll officially be a civilian on Sunday at 11 59 pm, woot! I have an amazing boyfriend, too, Todd, and today is our one month anniversary. I'm so happy with him, and off of that boat... that's the max of it, really. The ( Read more... ) -
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You know what I want out of love? I want the kind of love that they show in the Karate Kid II movie. You know... the first, passionate, "I think you're beautiful" kind of love, as well as the forever, "been apart for 50 years but I'm still in love with you" love. Yeah... that would be nice. To have someone love me for the rest of my life, and to ( Read more... ) -
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He's single again. I feel like a traitor to myself, that that fact makes me a bit happy. He mentioned it casually. He also mentioned an ex, in San Diego, who wanted him to come over. I... it shouldn't have bothered me, but it did. I want to get over him so badly. Every time I see him, even just a picture, I want to kiss him, I want him to hold me ( Read more... ) -
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How the hell can I still possibly have any feelings at all for him?? I told myself all deployment, especially with all that shit about being clingy, that I don't want to be with him. I don't want that shit. And yet... if he changed, even a little... and asked me out... I'd probably say yes in a heartbeat. And his msn thing has his actual picture on ( Read more... )