I am so tired of trying.I am tired of religion. I am tired of depression. Hell I am tired of almost everything. I get no enjoyment any more, it's not allowed. Shit is actually starting to get tasty now so I know tht something is wrong. It is dark and cob webby in my mind and the chains of pain are ratttling all the time. The small voice of self ( Read more... )

Hmmm, Wonder if she was gonna let me know. Beck left me a NOTE, " Gas leask in hall or bathroom." didn't want to wake me up to tell me some as trivial a the house could explode I guess. ( There was no gas leak). Went to bed at 11:30,didn't get to sleep till 2 am, woke up 3 times till I finally got up at 5 with this stuff. I am tired AGAIN because ( Read more... )

You lose track of all your old allies and friends. Your daily routine is invoved in how much time you can waste by doing the mundane. Your health, and those around about the same cronologic arena as yourself are starting to lose touch and die as leaves falling from a an autum tree. Death. The death of your soul, the esssence of what makes you a ( Read more... )

The owner of the property where I live really doesnt want to fix the roof and is trying to get us to move out. He showed us another property he has for rent for about 150 bucks a month more. I think it is in nont so good shape, it will need a lot of work and has no garage. Also all of our kitties will have to go outside. I hope they fix the roof ( Read more... )

Like the title says, maybe I'll just end it for good.

Well after a long struggle with a dying hard drive I couldn't tqke it any more. I extracated it from the confines of the drive bay and unceremoniously took it out side and emptied the magazine from my semi-auto pistol into it. "It", will never bother me again with crashes and glitches. When I lost all my info on it last time ,well, that was the ( Read more... )

Just another day on planet earth. Sunshine, warmair, growing things, crap going wrong with the car,gotta go to work. Sorta like, happy/crappy, ya ,"know whut I mean Vern?", if ya do then you've been in the zone too. So.... sunshine and horse apples everyone have a memorable day! ciaovedersien.

Pyetu my siamese cat that I raised from a kitten is gone. (Maybe good ridens LOL). He pissed me off for the last time late in the evening so I threw his ass out side. He had never had to be out of the house so he probably ran off seeing as I turned the outside light off and closed all the drapes so he couldn't see in. He had picked up the nasty ( Read more... )

Ell Beck has to go to Augusta for 2 days. She'll be staying at the motel overnightso she can get the mamogram done the next day at Ft. Benning. Haven't been a lone in a while and though it is nice to have some quiet time here it will be as if something important is missing. It's my three days off so I can get some house cleaning done and work ( Read more... )

I am tired of life. I wish it would end, then I could see if all the religious farie tales are true.