I got the job. Now I only wish everything else in my life would fall into place. I miss my family. The way we used to be with hugs and things. But I also miss my independence from them. When I was living with Jeremy and his family. I wish I had a car and could drive. That wouold be nice. Then I would have more control over my life. I wouldn't have ( Read more... )

I'm starting to feel better. Now that I have a second interview with Barnes and Noble. I love that place. I really hope I get that job. So people that pray.... to whatever they pray to. Pray that I get that job. I really want it ( Read more... )

I have made mistakes in the past, and I hate how the list keeps growing. You can always find a scape goat... someone or something else to blame it on... but no matter what you have to come to terms with the fact that you made that mistake. I guess you don't have to... its called living in denial. Anyway... I don't know what I am rambling on about ( Read more... )

Happy Wednesday.

Today was the second day I worked. I hate it and I love it. I just can't decide. I guess the money makes it worth while. Because everyone knows how badly I need money.

Umm... Nothing really to say. I love my boyfriend. And I am a loser.

I hate Christmas Eve. Its boring.

Todays Christmas Eve. I don't know if I like that or not. Its weird because this Christmas I am torn between my boyfriends family and my family. My Mom said your not supposed to feel that way unless your married ( Read more... )

Well I have a lot to say. Things have been crazy. I went $120 in debt because I over withdrew from my account so I had to borrow money from my boyfriends family so they wouldn't keep tacking on fees for being in the negative. I was super depressed over it. I don't know how I screwed up that bad. I guess I just didn't do my job keeping track of the ( Read more... )

I got back from California a few days ago. It was a nice vacation. I guess I didn't know how much I missed my friends until I was there. Now I'm back to being lonesome. But I guess thats ok. I can always go back ( Read more... )

I am scared and excited to go to CA.

I guess the only thing that scares me is the bus ride.

I am a wimp when it comes to things.

Planes don't scare me but buses do.

I hope everyone I want to see is able to see me while I am there.

I miss so many people.

But the people I miss the most I will definatly see.

Megan and Lorina.

Oi.

Hello Dolly. Or something like that. I leave for CA in 4 days. I think I want to go to the My Chemical Romance concert tomorrow. I don't know if Jeremy will want to though ( Read more... )