I thought once summer came.. i would become more happy and thats definitly not the case. i dont understand why i always have the same battle with happiness. i think it partly is because i wont let myself be happy... becuase i cant accpet myself. its almost like i cant accpet what i have is enough to be happy. i've let so much go lately that im ( Read more... )

why can't i ever be truly happy?

why do i hate myself? I seriously have never been able to accept myself in my whole life, that I remember. There is always soemthing i could change or work on, and i seriously just don't like myself at all. i dont know what is wrong with me either becuase i feel like i am a nice person but i just keep critisizing myself. i dont know why i cant just ( Read more... )

Alot of people feel alone in the world. I am one of them. I don't understand what it is but it's alwyas like I'm never good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, funny enough, not worthy. I wish I had one friend that I knew would alwyas be there for me and not be a bitch or kick me to the curb every once in a while. It just fucking sucks knowing I ( Read more... )

just another Christmas without my dad.. fun times, fun fucking times.

not.

so last year i think i wrote a journal and it said sometihng like "my mom has cancer"...

im so fuckign scared right now.. my mom has to get another surgery, a year later.. because they think it might be cancer again.

why the fuck does this happen?
i know everyhting will be okay but im really scared this time.. again

i'm so fucking upset lately and i dont know why. well i mean i know school is one big reason and its really getting to me, i feel like i can't go to school anymore becuase whenever i get there im just like fucking sad or mad. it feels like some things are going totaly wrong and some are right. my weekends have been really good lately.. ive met some ( Read more... )

I don't know whats werong with me lately but i just am getting really fucking pissed off for liek no reason. i did some pretty gay fuckign things that were pretty stupid on my part. im already so sick of gay school ebcase the girls are all liek rich bitches and don't talk to you.

yeah

I feel so drained of happiness, like someone took it all out of me and put in like anger. I I seriouslyn don't know if I can do it much longer. I'm so sick of everything

My mom might have breast cancer.

When she told me, my stomach started to hurt, I'm scared. Shes the only parent i have. :-/