there is something to gain when living a life of solitude. at first your mind races around the room, house, block trying to fit pieces of a regret and fortune together, slowly everything changes. you begin to appreciate the tiny parts of life no one in a 5 mile radias is recognizing. you feel grateful that you are separated from the pull of the ( Read more... )

inspiration deleted in less than 2 minutes ( Read more... )

i stood on the edge of a man made pond ( Read more... )

To see you when I wake up ( Read more... )

im at a dark stage. i havent put my heart on the line since carl. i forgot what it feels like the pain in your stomach and your heart and you cant even breathe. i guess i was just another rebound. i felt this one was different. maybe were both at different parts in our lives. so hes back with his ex. and im back to laying on my floor at 3 am going ( Read more... )

go to USF

get a Phd

have a long life love affair with art

go to Egypt

be in a magazine

be in playboy

have a son that bares the name Joseph Ernest

help humanity

love myself

live in a Victorian home

find a secret passage

solve a mystery

love someone unconditionally

do meaningful graffiti in a public place

visit my ancestors home villages

smoke on haight-ashbury ( Read more... )

its been days sad hours seem so long he hasn’t call he wont call.. they never call

A cop described me as the pretty one in the blue top once…
I find myself in a week that is a bubble that is about to burst
I called 911 once watching my mom scream and my brother dying
She called 911 once watching my father leave with her entire life

I thought 13 held an unknown magic
I thought if I wrote it down 13 times it would appear
I’m lost and too ( Read more... )

a pride that doesnt come easy
a smile that starts in my own hands
a nail that has been chewed too far
an unreturnable phone call
a person behind bars
a past drunk and asleep

the tap-tap of a long cold straw
upon a toxic drink, the tap-
tap of a false started heart
& a girl with blond hair who
longs for a choice, a rememberance
of a llulaby and a love for
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