Hello again dear journal. Been.. Months since my last entry, and boy have things changed. Living with David, Frank and Stan now. Better relationship with my parents as a result. Hair is black, tongue is peirced, and boobs are slightly bigger, lol. Things, on a whole, have been good. There are the days when I want to curl into a ball and dissapear, ( Read more... )

I feel slightly crazy for wishing he would be ok with the idea of hurting me just so I could be near him. My strength, my backbone, and a lot of the time some sanity in my life, and I wish he would just pick and choose so that I'm not going insane anymore! I want some stability with the people I love and I just feel that even if he were hundreds of ( Read more... )

Chopped all my hair off, whee! Parents hate it, figures, don't think anyone else likes it either, but it's short, hassle free, and out of my way, w00t!

Worked a few hours at Publix yesterday, but got a huge migrane and had to go home early, once again, parents were pissed...

=sigh= I'm hungry...

So since the job at Billy's kinda fell through(still more hurt by him than angry, how pathetic) I applied and got an interview at Publix. In theory I should be able to start in about a week... I'm settling really because I need a job... Life in general right now just makes me wanna curl up and die... Or just completely give up and become the huge ( Read more... )

I realised today how old my father really is. It sucked watching him go through heat surgery and cancer, the stroke when he went blind, everything, but I never really understood that he isn't as big and strong as he pretends. He turns 69 this year and he still works. He's gone through things that would kill a lot of people, but he still gets up ( Read more... )

Ever find yourself missing someone, then hate yourself for it?

Life is WONDERFUL!!! Apart from a few hiccups here and there, life in general is amazing, and I am happy, and confident and loving being home... =sigh= England was amazing... Maisey was perfect, I love her to peices! Been back about 2 hours and my room is a mess already, lol! Got to see Uncle David for the first time in over 3 years! Laura in the ( Read more... )

My doctor wants to put me on more medication because of my lack of sleep. She wouldn't be sleeping with these nightmares either. Decided to take some time off from people, so far, nobody seems to really understand why. They think I'm mad at them, and I'm not, just stressed, and so confused. To try and cope, I am taking time of from certain people ( Read more... )

I am so sick of people. "Friends" talking shit behind my back, people who claim to want what's best for me constantly fucking with my life and making it more difficult. I'm just gonna be a fucking recluse. What the Hell is the point of having people around to lean on, and try to trust, if all they do is make things worse? I wish the world would ( Read more... )

Finally! I am now the proud owner of Shangri-La!!! Score! I have graduated to Juggalo status, well, in theory. I'm fucking addicted, it's sad, Chris has corrupted me. I have all 6 jokers cards, yay! and Hells Pit, but that is an extension on Shangri-La, so not sure if that would be a 7th, or part of the 6th... Oh the confusion ( Read more... )