I've been in my parents attic for a little over a day now. I haven't eaten at all. When I was in jail I would starve myself and the guards would force feed me. that was sexy ass shit. i would always be so hot after that shit that i would vomit it up all over Shanya, the only other person in jail who understood me. She knew that whenever i vomitted ( Read more... )

Hey motherfucker(s ( Read more... )

God damn I'm just feeling so empty and twisted and lonely right now. I've been cutting even more than usual this morning and I'm getting light headed. It's really beginning to make me feel high. Also I mugged a pill head. I don't know what kind of pills these are but I'm really fucking tripping balls. My hands are dry and scaly like an alligator. ( Read more... )

I think i'm going to become a rapist and try to get pregnant. if my uterus is fucking good for anything with all the sharp shit ive shoved up in there i want to have a fucking child. child birth is supposed to be the most fucking painful part of a woman's life. no way am i missing out on that shit if i;m going to be alive for the next nine months ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning in the same spot. I walked over to my parents' house. Everything was fine it looked like they had cleaned up the gasoline. Stupid sons of bitches. That pissed me off so I walked in and said "Mom i'd like to fucking talk" my mom said "me too" she had that fucking piece of shit child on her lap. I said "put that thing away" she ( Read more... )

Fucking fuck. I was asleep and just fucking lying in a puddle of my own blood, feeling very close to death and a fucking bird flew into this fucking building I'm in and woke the shit up our of me. Now I feel so shitty and tired and half human just like I deserve to feel. I was just going to post this then roll over and go back to fucking unconsious ( Read more... )

PS ( Read more... )

Last night I was fucking retarded. i regret my actions. I hate myself so much. I couldn't really come up with a creative way to kill myself because I had limited resources and according to my plan limited time. so i was like fuck, i have sharp shit. let's just off with it. So I had a small ritualistic thing I do where I got naked and started ( Read more... )

I hate when people fucking wake up. I didn't end up falling asleep last night. That bird wouldn't leave, so I grabbed it by the wing and slammed its head into the ground. It looked fucking dizzy or some shit, then I wringed it's neck so I could feel it stop breathing. God damn that was a fucking turn on I only wish he had been a fucking human. ( Read more... )

So yesterday after I got out of jail (and after I fucking posted on here) I walked all the way to my parents house and went back to my old room, where my computer was. Right now I'm on a laptop I stole right when I got out of jail. So I went into my room, and not only was my computer not there, but the walls were fucking pink. It was all I could do ( Read more... )