So, life hasn't been that great. I swear to you, I feel as though I'm wallowing in my own guilt, and self pity.  I really need to work on that.  I'm so far away from God, it scares me.  I've resulted to giving in to the thoughts the devil has been trying to engrave in my mind for years.  Before, when I was more in tune with my Lord and Savior, ( Read more... )

I have not updated this journal in a while. A lot of things have occurred since my last message.

1. After having a conversation with Diego about my shortcomings, I spoke to someone else about my conversation with Diego. He concluded that everything Diego said was a lie. My friend claimed that I can commit to anything as long as I put my mind ( Read more... )

I’m on a journey to a barren land. There's absolutely nothing there but a quill pen and several pieces of parchment. On the first sheet of parchment, it asks me "WHO ARE YOU"... A question that I've been seeking an answer for. It’s been a long, long journey seeking to figure out what makes me happy, what makes me sad, what makes me full of energy, ( Read more... )

September 18th, I made the conscious decision to rededicate my life to the Lord. I knew that I was extremely far from Him, that no matter how much I tried to create self-fulfillment, I was never happy, never satisfied with what I've done. However, since then, I cannot stop smiling. I see, now, that the Lord had been only preparing me all that time ( Read more... )