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Looking forward 3-5
So I missed a few days of posting. I didn't miss my focus on life though. I kept that going every day.
It's not always easy to do. I've really gotten into the habit of seeing the immediate moment and not looking forward or appreciating things for what they really are. It's certainly an eye opener!
In the meantime, I've been celebrating and ( Read more... ) -
Looking forward 2
Today was a rough one. A bit of a rollercoaster ride that lifted up to having fun, feeling appreciated and feeling accomplished, countered by sudden drops into frustration and disappointment and stress. Oh, yay, whee.
Being focused on, and staying focused on, anything positive was difficult. Today's thing to keep me looking forward isn't the ( Read more... ) -
Looking forward 1
I didn't want to go to work today. I mean, it was one of those mornings where my deepest, all consuming longing was to stay home. So, I decided to seize the moment.
I have a job. This is a fantastic thing. In a country where so many don't have jobs, I do. Even better, my job lets me afford to live in this place where I can have days that I ( Read more... ) -
Gratitude
I saw the response about the photos not working. I'm figuring that out.
In the meantime, I'm trying to adjust my frame of mind. It's a little rough because of two factors. The first is that Cecil is so full of negativity and rain clouds that it keeps focusing me back on the sadness and depression I'm trying not to be a part of anymore. Their ( Read more... ) -
Settling in, finding my feet
I have been unpacking and settling in and really enjoying having the space here. I get a little lonely at times, but really, it's just not all bad. No more constantly dealing with Nikki's moods, tantrums, silent treatment, nasty looks, talking about me behind my back, or anything else. No more Cecil and Nikki constantly arguing and then him being ( Read more... ) -
Solaris Liberatis
I did indeed name and bless my new home as Solaris Liberatis. I know the conjugation is a tad off and I've mixed Latin and Greek, but oh well. The meaning is clear enough, "Sunlight set free." During the day, it's a very appropriate name. Tonight, it's dark and dreary, damp and chilly. I don't want to turn on the heater though. It seems a ( Read more... ) -
I am away too long
I know that I am. I do try not to be. I've been looking forward to the move. I'm less than 30 days from moving day. I can't quite settle myself that all will be well though. My mind churns constantly about whether I'll have enough money, what if I miss work,what if I can't buy food, what if the car breaks down, and what if, and what if ( Read more... ) -
Still standing
I found a place to move into already. Yes, it's early but I needed something to put my feet on. I'm going to take a one bedroom instead of my usual two. If I have two bedrooms I keep ending up taking someone in or even just finding a roomie. Then I end up used for the money and tossed aside. Now it's time for me to learn to say no. If I can't ( Read more... ) -
Well, that was unexpected.
This may be a touch disjointed and typos or bad word choice are entirely possible. I'm making this one from my phone while at work. Did I ever mention that auto correct hates me?
Day before last, I was contacted by Jesse. His aunt, who raised him, has died. She and I were close, so he felt I should hear the news.
I was just stunned by the news ( Read more... ) -
The name I chose for the blog is becoming prophetic...
I'm sorry to make anyone worry. I got all your messages, and honestly, your concern right now was much needed. I've really been struggling lately ( Read more... )