u always wanna be somewhere other than where u are.
why does everything come back so quickly

happy birthday to the one and only angela jiang. hope u'r having fun wherever u are. japan or taiwan. one of those places. remember, u gotta "swim over whatever that thing is called" to see me. =) love ya lots.

in shanghai 6/17-7/20. gimme a call if u'r there and wanna meet up. 011-86-21-62335260 (don't really need the first 3 blocks of numbers...those are international area codes)

eme sufn oc: i forget who was eating chocolate cake
Lifes A POS: hahahahaha
eme sufn oc: and i was *like o man that's gonna be a bitch later

i don't wanna die this way.
i don't wanna live this way.
why can't there be a way out.
why am i weak

christine: like you're gonna throw a fruit basket up in the air
christine: and BLAM with a shotgun
christine: and then i'll scream and run away
christine: and you can be like HAHAHA I'M JUST FUCKIN WITH YOU
Lifes A POS: HAHAHAHAHAHHHHAHAHHAHAHA
christine: later we find out i had your baby o_O
Lifes A POS: ...

i feel really inadequate. not just right now, but a lot of times. i can't do anything right, and i'll never be good. i look at everybody else, and they're better than me. i hate myself, but then i also lie to myself and make excuses because i'm worthless like that. i just get really really sad. and i'm so ashamed. i feel sorry for my friends. and i ( Read more... )

tell me the reason why u live
(i'm serious)

cause once u pop, u just can't stop. but this time around, it's never fun or games. why does it have to be this way. i was so good for so long. i gained so much, but i was good. but it never goes away. cause it's back. why can't i just have something i want for once. why does it have to be so hard.

i'm going to just say this here...cause maybe it'll help me more
i'm going to stop binging and everything that comes afterward and messing myself up, cause it's seriously gotta stop, and this is not the way i want my life.