never tell ppl that things are gay, that u hate life, and that everything sucks. because nobody wants to hear that, what kind of conversation is that. u build a negative atmosphere around urself and it's not like ppl have anything to say to it, especially if they don't know u. ppl will stay away from u, and u will have done it to urself ( Read more... )

so on sunday night, eric's friend matt came over...he's a cool guy. we drank smirnoff and james and bartle's. then eric went next door to say give his senior pics to cassie...he ended up staying over there for like an hour just catching up w/ each other's stuff...so matt and i burned like 100 matches outside...it was pretty cool fun stuff =) and ( Read more... )

eme sufn oc: are you going to paint the chimmeny ( Read more... )

i feel like binging. u know what comes after that

this time, it's for a good reason. because i feel like absolute shit about everything. and i need some comfort. fuck it all. and fuck the fact that i can even do this

emily is off getting drunk and having fun. and she is talented. i am very happy for her =) but i wish i was drunk with her and having fun too. oh well

ok here's a new topic for once ( Read more... )

after i got back from camping, i realized i had so much fun...and then slowly everything came back and i feel like shit again...so quickly...i remember everything i hate and everything that brings me down and everything that worries me...it's so retarded...this is exactly what happened the last time i came home after having fun...now i'm just ( Read more... )

i hate this shit. i am so fat. i am now the same as i used to be. lost 20 pounds in one summer. and now it's all back. all fucking back. and i don't know how to lose it again because i've got so many problems. it's not as easy as it used to be. now i'm just obssessed and my whole life just revolves around thinking about how i shouldn't eat, and as ( Read more... )

here's a hateful entry for y'all ( Read more... )

oh yea forgot to add...emily is also my bitch =) i love her just as much...but right now she is in aspen =( but she will send me the free condoms they get there =) yay!