sooo much homework. gah
i got my stiches out today
it didnt hurt
i also went to a play thing at the school
it was good
my friends went, so it was fun :]
i went to some homework club thing after school too
& my friends went to that too so it was cool :]
&&&&&& uhhhhh, i presented something in english with rachel. big fun.
& i didnt go to school monday cuz i ( Read more... )

i hung out with devon 
she spent the night thursday
& i ditched school to hang out with her all day
thursday i went to franks
& uhh. yeah. well, yeah.
it was pretty trippy
but devon took care of me. it was nice
i love that kiddo
she leaves tomorrow morning
i dont get to see her until summer
:[
today was fun
yesterday was fun
it was all fun
bryan is being a ( Read more... )

today satchel called me,
just to like talk as friends
yeah. it was weird but uhh nice ?
i'm talking to devon on the phone right now
i have to call brian soon
i thought i was gonna hang out with him today,
but it was raining & he went to mya's house
i like mya. she's so nice
uhhh.
yeahhhh. i get to see devon thursday & friday
i think shes gonna spend the ( Read more... )

i finally broke up with satchel
shit
he was really sad
i felt really bad
but i dont like him
& its better than leading him on & stuff

& i like bryan
& i dont want a boyfriend anymore
& just..its..
gah

whatever. at least i finally had to the balls to do it.

gahhh

i suck

ugh
nevermind the last entry
whatever.
this day has been soooooooo boring
i did nothing
i was supposed to hang out with becca
but she couldnt
yesterday was fun
& friday
but today sucked
gah

ARGGGGG
what a fucking douche !
why do guys have to lie about everything ?
if they did something with a girl,
they could either not tell anyone
or be honest about what they did & not make up crap
& then have another girl the next night
& i know i have this other boy
but still
gahhhhhhhhhh
what a fucking ass holeeeeeeee

"ooh. look what you've done, you've made ( Read more... )

so last night i got stoned
& for real
i was laughing the whole time
& i broke franks bong :[
i should buy him a new one
i felt bad
& then me & bryan hooked up
i like bryan
i dont know. i just did dumb things last night
but it was fun :]
i dont know.
hmm
my knee is still messed up
i dont think i have to go to work cuz i cant really walk that well

so i got stiches in my knee
& it hurts way bad
cuz i'm a fucking dumbass & fell in p.e.
stupidddd
so i went to the nurse
with like blood dripping down my leg
& they called my mom & she took me to the doctor
& they x-rayed it just to make sure it was okay
& then they put crap on it & cut the skin & stiched it & did all this painful shit & gave me a painful ( Read more... )

"i hate everything about my ways but you tell me i'm okay"

i hung out with rachel last night
it was way fun
i love her

& i love devon
she's amazing

& things r sucky. but eh. i just dont know what to do.

"you say it's only me and that i'm so perfect for you. i dont want to make this right. i dont want to try no more."

chasing the ghost, of a good thing
haunting yourself as the real thing
it's getting away from you again
while you're chasing ghosts

& i'm so guilty these days

today was okay
went to school
worked
& i should call satchel soon

tomorrow i have to work
blah.