updating two days in a row... i kno... amazing ( Read more... )

so i have been home for like 4 days now. It is so different being at home... i am not used to having my mom here every day. At first i was mad because i did not think it was fair to come home and have to change my rootine and the choices i am used to making for myself and bow to my parents rootine and the choices they make for me. But i am ( Read more... )

in one week from today i will be home for the summer. I cant wait to see everyone, so this should be a happy thing, but i am a bit nervous. Stephen will be 1.5 hrs away, but more importantly, i will have to live in a "steril" house. Its so clean its discusting... this is not my home. I will have to move, and deal with all of my things, my ( Read more... )

it is so hard to be home. I feel as if the progress i have made at school took giant leaps backwards. It seems like i am in limbo here, i can not breath or function. I feel alone, and am reverting back to the way i functioned befor i left after christmas break. I find myself crying a lot durring the day. Part of me cant wait to get out of here ( Read more... )

i am coming home tomarrow. My father is coming to pick me up at 4. I should be exiteded, but i cant help but have this forboding feeling inside. This will be the first time i have been home for an extended amount of time since my grandfather's passing. I am constantly reminded of him here, but at home i will be in the places that we had so many ( Read more... )

so it has been a life time since i have updated... so here i am updating... anyway things have been up and down. I have good days and bad days. Slowly but surely the good days are out numbering the bad ones and it seems that most the days are good. There are the occasional sleepless nights... but i can deal with that. It is better than the pain ( Read more... )

ok... so its been a very long week... a really really long week. for those of you who dont know, my grandfather passed at about 12:15 am on the 26th of december... in other worlds late christmas night ( Read more... )

ok so... my b-day was awsome!!!! IM 19!!!!!!!!!

had a great time w/ everyone... thanks for coming over ya'll. if u want the details of the night u will have to ask me... im too tired at this point to type them...

g-night all

1. Luke ( Read more... )

this is sooo hard... i finally have free time... and there is so much i want to get done... but i find myself feeling horrible ( Read more... )