The last entry that i posted was written yesterday, and i wanted to post as written. But i want to explain a bit more thuroughly, because maybe i am not being fair. I was expecting understanding of something that maybe can not be understood unless you have been there. I am not looking for attention, which is why this all has remained unsaid. ( Read more... )

sometimes we judge before we even bother to scratch the surface and look beneath, and those we love can be isolated by the unwillingness to understand without cutting them open ( Read more... )

so after this recent little battle of mine the last two weeks, and my amazing realization at church... i came to thinking about who i am. i realized that i may not have perfected all of my summer goals, i still may get angry, and sometimes i over react, and sometimes i let myself get wrapped up in the loneliness ( Read more... )

its friday, and i have come to realize that i have nothing to do... and not in a good way. the people here, they dont like me, i mean... its not like im hated... im just not the person that will ever be called to hang out... in fact i am not even the person that is invited because they are standing there when the plans are made. people will make ( Read more... )

after today, i only have 37 days left here at adrian college. in 37 days i will get to make the drive home to the friends and family that have become my world. You can't choose your family, but i guess i am lucky in that way, i have a family that i wouldnt change... we fight, like all families do, but the unconditional love and support they have ( Read more... )

so i thought i would catch everybody up with what all has been happening in my life since this summer... heres the quick and dirty version ( Read more... )

so i thought i would come on here and let ya'll know that im still alive. It has been so long since i have done the whole lj thing, but i felt a need to come on and blog a bit. Dont really have too much to say at the moment, just that things change quickly, and it has been an interesting ride watching it all melt away like a sand castle at high ( Read more... )

so i had oral surgery on friday... which is way not cool ( Read more... )

so yesterday was the date... the 6 month mark of greif. who would have thought that yesterday could be so good? there were times where it ached to think it has been six months without him, without his smile, laugh, or advice, but i made it through. I honored his memory by smiling laughing and even giving advice to a friend. I have great friends ( Read more... )

so this weekend was interesting to say the least. friday went bowling and actually won a game!!! then went out to KARAOKE! man i missed the fun and thrills of singing in a bar! jk so then sat went to see stephens play. I was impressed with the dancing. it was interesting to compare their rendition of oklahoma to ours. and now i am heading to ( Read more... )