its funny... i used to be this girl.. this fiery, energetic outspoken girl that was loveable... and not just by some.. i could debateably say i was genuinely loveable.. i gave with everything i had.. and i felt with just as much magnitude.. the disintegration of a visceral being was something that could be etched upon a blank white slab of concrete ( Read more... )

the emptiness is easier than it seams... yes, seams.. they unravel when something like death finds its toll on someone who was meant to at least be something more.. maybe it was me that was meant to be more.. but now that my father is gone, i feel as if everything i did means nothing.. why i cant finish or even rebegin my thesis is beyond me.. and ( Read more... )

"not necessarily for the faint of heart when i allow my imagination and pain to create art.." bnkl ( Read more... )

nothing seems to quite ( Read more... )

what does one do with grief.. grief that has snuck up on a warm day, only to take away any bit of sun that was shining... even the ocean.. walking with my toes in the sand and my ankles in the rising tide.. all i could feel was sorrow... the what ifs.. the should've.. the could've.. the emptiness that i cannot explain.. and the writing... the ( Read more... )

There is an idle eye ( Read more... )

fuck my life. FUCK. MY. LIFE. how many times can i say it until it no longer feels like it fits.. unconditionally apparently.. how can things happen SOOOO coincidentally and yet oh so regressively back n a circle ALL at the SAME time.. ex gf of forever ago hooks up w the same girl she cheated on me w the SAME time i get a myspace message by the guy ( Read more... )

NO- you DONT ( Read more... )

and im.. not... okay. i feel this urge.. this pint up aggression.. this anger.. this sadness.. this pain.. surging through me.. all over again... the images flash through me.. like a slide show movie that someone has strapped me into a chair and opened my eye lids and is forcing me to see.. and.. no... im not okay. i was .. okay. i was more than ( Read more... )

look me in my eyes ( Read more... )